It's been busy!

Zee and I had a great trip to Wisconsin. J's sister ended up having her baby as I was flying back home, so I didn't get to meet the littlest family member. They're doing well, though, which is great. Zee had so much fun with her cousins! She was quite bored once we returned home, but we're getting back into our groove now.

I started my Anatomy class two weeks ago, and man, it's intense! I only have a couple more weeks of class, then I'm all done with anatomy and physiology for the rest of my life. Okay, maybe not the rest of my life, but at least for the rest of my time at this university. It's such a great class, though. I highly recommend that everyone take this class. I've learned so much; it's great!

Zee's doing well. She goes to visit Owen and Tynes while I'm in class, so she's having a blast there. She just loves to interact with other children. She's such a sweet child, and sometimes I'm afraid that she'll get taken advantage of because of her kind nature. I'm glad she's not a fighter, but I do need to teach her to stand up for herself. That's going to be hard, since I have such a hard time standing up for myself. But I'm going to make sure she learns. She just loves to share everything she has. Not a selfish bone in her body, sweet little thing.

J is doing great since his surgery. He returned to work today after a month off. He started off his day with a bang. He had to take his DLPT (proficiency test) after a month of no work. Most people get a four week refresher course before the test, and he didn't have that or work to refresh him. And it's also the new DLPT V, and only five people in his company have passed it. I feel so bad that he had to take it cold, but they're not going to mess with his FLPP pay (the money he gets for doing so well on the proficiency test), and that's my biggest concern. Of course my next biggest concern is getting a contracting job next year. If he doesn't pass this DLPT, I'm not sure how that will affect him getting a job later. I'm not going to worry about that at this point, but it's like a little spur in my mind. I know the Lord will provide, so I'm trying not to worry about the future.

I have been really looking into midwifery, and I've spoken with some awesome midwives this week. I really, truly in my deepest heart want to be a midwife. I'm not sure that my dream will ever come true, since J has a lot of apprehensions, specifically about legal issues and the antagonism from the medical community towards midwifery. I just found out that the certified nurse-midwife at our local hospital has been denied delivering privileges at the hospital, which is just ridiculous! And the reason she was denied is even more ridiculous. Apparently the OB residents haven't attended enough deliveries, so they put the CNM on hold so that the residents can get their numbers up! I'm very livid over this, as I had planned on seeing the CNM once I become pregnant again. At this point, my homebirth is seeming more and more like a real possibility. I refuse to be under a doctor's care again, unless it's warranted by some kind of risk during my pregnancy. My birth with Zee was too traumatic, and I won't go through it again. I need my next birth to be a healing experience.

So, speaking of my dislike of OB's...I think I may try to attend medical school in order to become an obstetrician. I'm in the very baby stages of researching and looking into this idea, but it really looks like this is what the Lord has planned for me. I've been fighting it for the past few months, because I'm very afraid of the impact it will have on my family, but I keep coming back to the realization that this is what I need to do. I'm scared. I lack confidence in my ability to do this. But the Lord wants me to do this, so He will get me through. And I'm definitely open to changes in plans, and I won't be at all disappointed (really, I'll be happy) if this doesn't work out. So, I ask for prayers as I embark on this insanity called education!

There, I think that about catches up on everything. I'm going to make an effort to write more here, and I need to get the word out to family that this is up. I like having my own secret little blog, though, so I can vent and get out all of my feelings without anyone but myself knowing that this even exists. But it would be convenient to update family via blog entries! Well, I'm off to save the world...or not =P.